I hear you, and my heart goes out to you, sunsun. Cheese is on my list as well of things I have to avoid. For me it's not about the fat content; it's about the flavor and texture. I think that's why compulsive eating is so difficult to recover from; physically, there are so many things to take into consideration. Food becomes (or has become) like an addiction and it can be very difficult to break the cycle, and even a taste of an ingredient in something can set me off for months or even years of an uncontrollable cycle.

If ridding your diet of cheese will help you maintain health and sanity, then I support you. I know it will be difficult, but you have my support.