There you are! I wondered how you were doing...
Sweet girl, stay strong, stay away from this situation.
I'm sorry too that you are hurting.
Do you have other things, work, school, friends, family, even a hobby to turn to? Keeping your mind on other things will really help.
Even taking some pretty pictures with your phone will cheer you up.
One step at a time. You will get there.
And Bill3 is right: this is truly a blessing in disguise.