Okay, so, basically I'm just wondering if anyone can relate to this. There's been an emergency in my household tonight and so I have been home alone for the last couple of hours, and spent most of it on here, responding to threads, browsing forums, and sending messages to people. The problem is this: I really want to reach out to people - it's important to me, and I think that creating relationships with people is an important step in building community and in the healing process - but I'm always afraid that they're not going to respond, or they're going to think I'm stupid, or that I'm some kind of a weirdo or something. I know it's all in my head and that it's not really case, but the thoughts are so strong sometimes that I actually believe these things about myself and it makes it quite difficult to reach out to people and take the initiative in getting to know folks. I don't know if anyone else experiences this? I guess it comes from a place of low self-esteem; I have never really valued myself much or placed much worth on myself as a person, and I've never really felt that anyone else has either. I guess it's a hurdle I'll have to keep jumping as I begin to trust the process more and have more confidence in myself and believe more in my intrinsic value. Anyway...just had to put that out there. Was feeling it really strongly tonight. Hope y'all are well.