when it rains, it pours. when i was depressed i used to say that to myself. a lot. and dont say "snap the hell out of it" there are other very very nice people to tell you that. i remember asking my pdoc "isnt my self destructive tendency proof of depression" she actually said nope it might be just you. in depression even self destruction feels amusing. it was like story of the last emperors. it was like staring at stars while your whole empire crumbles around you. caring nothing perhaps nero was bipolar when he was playing fiddle while rome burned around him. anyway take care of that shopping thing. i havent bought anything from ebay for last 6 months.