Having my own lil pity party here, not sure why, just woke up angry and annoyed, and now I feel so desperately sad, and I don't really know why, besides the fact I wonder why me? well it has to be somebody I guess, but I keep plodding along, always 'fine' or 'ok' and some days are great days, some are easy to pretend 'its all ok' days, but some are like today, where I go on super selfish mode and wallow and cry and feel sorry for myself. Not sure how long it will last, hopefully not long, as its all very draining, but then to be fair, just existing is draining. Not posting for hugs etc, just wanted to vent somewhere where I can at least be sure someone will see it, why that matters I have no clue.