wow can i relate!!! although not by the choking, just the fear that ANYTHING that will draw attention to me in a room full of people and I will fail and that is so embarrassing that i want to die (not literally). I used to be a dancer at bachelor parties when I was younger and thrived on the attention (of course I had to catch a buzz first to control the intense anticipatory anxiety) but I loved all eyes on me, and now, I run from it every chance I get. My "trademark" if you will, isn't choking on food, I get this shaking in my cheeks that causes me to have a hard time smiling. So when I'm at a party and everyone is laughing except me, it looks like I'm upset, but really I just don't want anyone to see my stupid shaky cheeks or they will know I'm freaking out!!! Good luck
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andrea wilde
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