Thank you for a reply. I'm concerned that the moment I 'break' and lose my inhibitions (that actually are preventing me from living very much as they cause to have huge intimacy issues) and I start following these moods, I think they may become pretty destructive. It's fine to be any of these 'versions' of me, but I fear how I would feel after action and the switch. It could be a huge string of regrets. Not like it isn't right now. I do regret that I don't do many things. But then I will likely regret that I do.

And while regretting NOT doing things is annoying and well, full of regret. It's not scary, terrifying or making me feel bad about myself. The other way around it could end like that. I don't know. Or maybe it would all end if I just let myself act on them. No idea. That's why I'd like to know if others are the same and if I should or not or what really.