I understand, Shery53.

There are some bipolar folks who cycle at the spring season and in winter. Don't know if you're in the United States, but if you are, that could be part of the reason you're having a difficult time. Maybe your psychiatrist could tweak your meds during this time, and when summer gets here you'll be much stronger. Circadium rhythms
enter into the bipolar scenario more than we sometimes are aware of.

Also read today that bipolar patients frequently have a very strong sensitivity to
light. Hope you're wearing sun glasses outside at this time of the year. And be
careful about watching too much tv (unless you put on some glasses that block the
glare).

A stable rest schedule is so important; I hope you're getting a full night's restful sleep. A lot of sunlight during the late afternoon can slow down the production of melatonin which begins to activate around sunset. That might affect your sleeping.

Be sure to tell your psychiatrist what's going on so he'll know just how to medicate you for the season. I hope you're going to avoid the hospital, too. It sounds from
your message as if you might not have to be hospitalized having as much control as you do over your feeling tone.

If you're agitated, try to calm that by squeezing 2 lemons into 8oz. of water and drink it; if you aren't calm within 4 hours, repeat the process; that should do it for you. Some of us do that on occasion to get relief, and it works to lower acid levels
of tissues and fluids.

Hopefully, you'll get better and better as Spring rolls on.

Take care and please continue to post as you wish.

Others will be along soon probably.