Got news for you, I am 5'2" & when I got down to 93lbs last year, I kept passing out & ended up hospitalized medically for about 2 months with a central line & TPN (IV nutrition). You may want to be that thin, but your body doesn't.

Do you really want to be that sick to the point where you are passing out (who knows where or when). Do you want to be taken to th ER & having them hospitalize you & have to agree to having either a central line or a feeding tube otherwise they will put you on a 72 hour hold?

I know that anorexia isn't logical. I have experienced it 2 times (the first time I was down to 83lbs) before anyone realized it. I was put into a treatment center that time for a month. The first time, it was my body's reaction to prozac. I just felt so sick & kept loosing weight because everytime I ate & fetl sick......then I decided that I really wanted to be thin for the first time in my life. I also didn't care about living at the time either. For almost a year after the treatment center, I kept my weight in the low 90's & ended up passing out all the time too. Everytime that happened, I ended up in the hospital having to have a central line & IV nutrition. I can tell you, the central line is nothing to want. It is actually a surgery done by an anetheisologist where they put an IV line into your upper chest & it goes close to your heart. It especially isn't fun when they puncture your lung & then you end up worse than your were.

Somehow, my weight go to a fairly normal level & I guess because my migraines were so bad & couldn't get out of bed to do anything, I ended up gaining weight to be fat.

When I went through a stressful trauma with my Mother when she was dying of cancer, I ended up with nausea that made me not feel like eating. That was the last time when my weight went down to the 93 & was medically hospitalized for about 2 months at the time my Mother died. Because of the problems I was having after the trauma, I just couldn't control the nausea & have been only able to stabalize my weight at around 100lbs. I still get dizzy & have nausea, but am able to at least function & actually look pretty good in my cloths. The bulges aren't there & I am pretty satisfied between the 100 & 104.

I would suggest that you not aim for the 90lbs unless you really want to have a horrible life style. When I was 93 lbs, I looked like a walking skeleton & IT WASN'T PRETTY. It you really want to look pretty, you need to find the weight for your height & exercise so that your muscles are keeping the bulges away.

I have realized that I can be thin & look good without having anorexia. I have periods where I end up not eating to loose a few pounds, but I have found the amount to eat & the amount of exercise I need to stay looking GOOD & not like a walking skeleton.

You are at a safe weight now.....you need to check out your BMI....I have found that when I am at the bottom of my safe BMI, that is where I look the best in my own mind & am well enough to function & not pass out all the time. What good is it to be that thin if the only people you will see you are the nurses & Dr's who are having to treat you & keep you from dying?????

Think about what you really want to do to yourself before you decide that 90 lbs is really what you want.

Debbie