Thank you all for your wonderful replies.

Petunia. write when you are able to. I look forward to your sharing if you feel like sharing.

Sky, thanks for telling me to not try to prepare or work on things outside of the session; that has calmed me down for now. And that memories are not necessarily complete. Also, you repeated my therapist's comment to me when I said I was afraid she wouldn't believe me.

Faith, thank you for sharing about your experiences; that's how it is for me, too. When I can feel her pushing me in that direction, which is fine with me, the panic starts.. I am committed to letting it flow so I can get through this for once, and not quit and run away.

I hope you all have a peaceful and fun day!