I 'think' losing just a tiny bit of weight to get into my pants is going to be ok. I mean it is a tiny amount. I am eating REALLY healthy. A green shake in the morning and then greens and greens and more greens with some protein thrown in.

My pdoc is really into nutrition and is totally ok with me doing this so I 'think' it is reasonable and I will be SOOOO happy to fit into my pants. I won't lose any more after that I guarantee. That is my only goal and I used to wear these pants for like 10 years with no problems.

I guess one of my issues is that I am 41 now and I don't want a 41 year old body I want the body that fits into the pants that I have been wearing for the last 10 years. Seems reasonable. I don't have kids or anything so there should be no major changes.

I know my brain is obsessed with wearing those pants for two reasons. One is that I WANT to fit into those pants and I am SO close.

Two is that I literally can Not afford new pants. That is just not an option. I can not afford to buy a single pair of pants right now. All I am buying are the absolute necessary items. Gas, food, dog vet, horse board, car insurance and so on... I wont even buy a single song on itunes. I mean not a penny on anything. I certainly am not going to throw out 20 pairs of pants when I can 'almost' fit into them.... Do you know what I mean?

C and Oliver (my Service Dog)