Okay so I've been on Depakote before and I got off of it with my pdoc's help because it made me gain way too much weight and I felt really down because of that. Now I'm on Lamictal, Saphris, and Vyvanse. Everything seemed to be working great until a few days ago. I got really violent towards my fiance and the cops were called. I almost had to go to an institution again. Before this recent episode I was dealing with a mixed episode and I was still on meds. I'm beginning to wonder if I'm resistant to meds since I don't think they're doing much for me. I'm scared to be put on Lithium or Depakote because I'm afraid of gaining my 20 pounds that I've already lost while being off Depakote. I don't know what to do and I'm wondering if I'll just be stuck with not being able to be treated successfully. I love mania don't get me wrong. I believe I'm experiencing hypomania right now. And it feels great! I talk people's heads off and I feel high. It's a really good feeling. I'm just scared of it turning into something worse. Has anyone else been hypomanic or manic when on meds? Is this just normal? I just don't know what to do anymore..