Thanks, Hilary and spondiferous,

yes, nothing seems to work. I don't have access to therapy, don't get me started, it's unfair being uninsured and unemployed, without savings, in my town when you really would like some help of this sort. I have medication for now but not sure if I can continue it. So it seems to be up to me, for now.

I very much like your suggestion Hilary of doing something for another person. And this, and blanking out, are the main things that I try. Trouble is, I can't sustain either one of them, and I don't feel relieved having done them.

I understand it's good to keep doing these things no matter if you don't feel like it - eat well, etc. For the most part I do, except that I've more or less stopped exercising except when I need to ride somewhere on the bike.

But this has been going on for months and not changing yet.

Guess I'll keep posting.

I'm thinking of you too, and thanks, it means a lot that you answered and tried to rack your brain for something helpful.

xxx Grace