The anger is good to get up and out, Speed. I'd ask my husband to help me with
the hospital admission thing; he'll let them know what is legal and not legal there.
But let's get Easter going for you this weekend, Please, Speed.

Please try to make yourself go purchase the things for the baskets. You have no idea how much all those children will appreciate it and it will help you,too. Just wait and see, Speed. If you absolutely can't make it, give your husband a list and ask him to get the things and bring them back to you; you can work at home to make beautiful ones. (I never could do it well.)

God isn't trying to make life difficult for you, Speed. You are loved by Him more than you can even imagine, and your son is in His greatest care. He wants you to have
a life that is comfortable, peaceful, and blessed. Please believe that all things work for good for those who believe in God, even though we can never see them when we are grieving.

The flooding of emotions is also necessary, though it's painful now. They will grow less severe each day. You have no idea how much better you are now than you were the day of Jason's death, Speed.

This world is just not in a perfect state for any of us, and we've all had or are going to get our share of pain and sorrow, I feel. For me, there will be more to come one day, but there's nothing we can do about the past, and we have no idea what the future holds. All that we have is today; let's make it good for someone in our lives. You have an opportunity to make it lovely for 5 youngsters. Please use your skills.

Your efforts for Easter are the beginning of building new relationships. Those children will never forget you for those gifts and they will often speak to you of your thoughtfulness in years to come. Please build your life anew; it will be good, in time,
and we so want you to make the effort now for Easter. It's the beginning of new
life, Speed, for you, your husband, and will please your son very much.

You know that his spirit is with you and always will be.

Now, take that shower tomorrow A.M. and go get those basket things, please. Let
that occupy your mind and let your husband worry about the hospital next week after Easter is behind us.

Hopefully, the daily devotional will have something of benefit for you tomrrow A.M.

Take care and keep in touch, please. We worry when we don't hear from you each
day right now during the holiday coming up and days ahead.