You're wrong, Speed. You're a wonderful person. To even consider making baskets for other children when you're in such grief is a testament to that. I'm happy you joined the board. I think that if there was any divine intervention going on here, it was that you joined the board right before this happened. So that we could be here and keep you safe for now as best we can, even though we are strangers over the internet.

Ask your husband to get the things for the baskets if he will.

Also, I have thought before that your pdoc has taken a turn for the worst for some reason. He is a toxic sore in your side right now. You really don't need him being a jackass but he is. See if you can get admission to the hospital from another source. You need it now, and it's evident that your pdoc needs to be reported for malpractice. It's terrible!