I'm Jenn. I have been diagnosed as bipolar NOS, have generalized anxiety disorder, ADHD,and major depression. My earliest memory of any psych problems was when I was about 7 years old. I wasn't diagnosed with depression until about 17. I first attempted suicide at the age of 13 by trying to OD on pills. Clearly, I was unsuccessful.

I wasn't diagnosed as bipolar until about 4 years or so ago and I've been on a huge variation of medication since then. Nothing seems to work. I was hospitalized in October of last year because I was having suicidal ideations after a manic episode. I have never felt so normal in my life as I did when I was in the facility. I found great comfort in being around other people who had similar experiences as me. It felt so good to be able to share symptoms and know that I am not alone.

I got switched around on some medications and everything appeared to be okay. I had to drop out of my semester at college and so I had nothing to do all day. Before I knew it, I was sleeping all day. I've gained 60 lbs in 6 months, sleep for way more than 10 hours a day and am still exhausted, I have lost interest in leaving my apartment and have a really, really hard time making it to class or finishing my graduate school applications. I've been depressed for 6 months with no relief in sight.

Anyway, I have reached out on the internet because I need a support group. I need to have people who know how this feels and I need to talk to people. I do see a therapist, but I need "real" people with "real" problems to talk to. I'm hoping to find that here. I'm honestly feeling pretty crazy right now because of the depression. I'm not suicidal at all, just exhausted. Anyway, I'm rambling. What I really meant to say was, "hi, I'm Jenn".

Thanks for letting me ramble.