I think you are bipolar but I'm not an expert. Bipolar can lead to psychosis and part of bipolar is mania. Honestly, you sound like you were psychotic. It's like mania but much more intense. There can be permanent damage as you have described.

Forgot to answer your question. Lost all my friends, memory, self-assurance, self-esteem and my job. I'm worthless in social situations. I freak out when an alarm clock goes off.