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Hi there,
Of course no one can diagnose you here and it sounds like maybe you need to have continued in-depth conversations with your psychiatrist (and therapist if you have one) about your symptoms to sort them out.
my moods go from being completely happy and fun to getting angry, defensive, and sad in a split second
But I will say in general that switching from one mood to another at the drop of a hat is more often than not, not characteristic of bipolar disorder.
it is rare I feel good but some days I wake up thinking I can do all this stuff or I make goals
And I'd say that feeling good, goal-directed, are wonderful things (however short-lived) and I don't think there's anything pathological about it. Is your behavior when you're feeling good very distressing to you or those around you or are destructive in some way?
but since I have been happy at lengthy times they have to diagnose me as bipolar I
This truly baffles me. Your psychiatrist told you that because you're 'happy' for lengthy times it means you're bipolar I? I assume there must be more to this than what you've said? In my opinion being happy is a wonderful way to be and not something to be diagnosed or medicated. There's so so much more to hypomania and mania than this, but it looks like you must have shared very different things with your psychiatrist for he/she to come to that opinion, so I don't know.
Which isn't to say that you're not very distressed, of course you could use some help and I'm glad you're reaching out. You can talk to your psychiatrist about medication, of course, but maybe you would benefit from therapy --it can really help with relationships and mood regulation. Maybe a therapist could help you identify what is triggering your moods and maybe from there you'll see that they're not as random as they may seem. It's tough and takes time, but I think it's worth it.
Best of luck!
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