Hi!

I've been feeling really really stuck in therapy and have been wondering if I am just irreparable, if I need a break, or a new T. I decided to try one more T before I determine that the next 30 years will be as miserable as my first 30.

I consulted with a new T. I really like her. I felt like she understood me. For the first time ever i felt understood. She noticed when I got anxious, or when my tone of voice changed. She made me feel that I am fixable down to my core, not just on the surface. I really like her and really want to see her again so I can ask a few follow up questions. After that I am going to take a break until the end of the year, which will give me time to put money aside for my therapy fund since this T is not in my network.

My only issue is telling my current T. I feel like I am betraying her. I don't want to hurt her feelings or her to think she failed--i am doing more than I was 3 years ago. I know i need to tell her I feel super stuck, but I am not sure if talking about my stuckness will result in any resolution any was--I am just not comfortable with her. I know I need to tell her I've been seeing other Ts for a consultation, but do I need to tell her that I will start working with the new T at some point?