That's how you feel. I know that goes without saying. But my clients were special to me, even if they didn't feel that way; even if i wasn't that special to them. I think there is something unsafe or something for you in feeling special. So maybe feeling special is unique to the person. I also realize feeling special is a fault, a sort of character defect. But once you grow past that aspect of it, finding a person's unique qualities is always interesting and exciting. Unless they're a bad driver and I have to be their passenger.