sorry olive but it doesn't just happen with teen boys. Older men can be even more aggressive and have stronger body builds to restrain when they want something. it sounds like you really need to deal with those incidents from the past and get a good grasp on how that affected you before you go into any more relationships and find yourself in the same boat yet again. You do have the right to say no! and stick to your guns. So know your own standards so you are not going out there blindly trusting men, thinking an older man will respect you better. Dreaming and fantasizing, while fun and healthy in its own way, does not get you into a healthy relationship.