People have lashed out at me before when Ive tried to be helpful. Its made me want to be less helpful. Especially here at PC where its supposed to be about helping but I understand feeling so rotten that anyone who tried to help got my angry feelings first cause thats what was front and center. If they stuck with me long enough, together we got to the center of things and I found out I was more hurt than angry, but that was rare.

I was sensitive to the fact that I needed help but I was never angry that they wanted to help. That seems obviously self defeating. Sometimes I was angry if a person didnt really listen to what I was saying and seemed bent on saying what they thought I needed to hear, so I know both sides. Sometimes they were right if I calmed down enough to listen. Im glad people tried to help. It showed there are people with good souls even if I was unable to communicate with them in the moment.

I think anger stops a lot of people from wanting to help and it takes a very compassionate person to ride it out with us. Hope you can get over this somehow nevergoodenough.