Thanks Nessa. In all honesty, I haven't fought hard enough to pull myself out of this depression. I know that if I take those baby steps, i will definitely feel and be better......... but it's summoning up the will to take that first step and then second step and then 3rd step that's so daunting. I have almost ZERO willpower and ZERO motivation. I'm operating on the most primitive of instincts: eating, sleeping, watching unhealthy stuff. How did I regress this low? unshaven, unkempt, almost non-existent personal hygiene(i do wash up after using bathroom, thankfully)