Yes, I do do this. I am not sure why. I would guess it is to make myself sound less crazy by giving a descriptor of why I behave the way I behave.
I guess I am embarrassed that I don't trust a soul on this earth or that I can't be left alone for even 5 minutes or that I live in my bedroom and feel like I can't leave the house and so on, I could go on for hours how messed up I am... I mean come on, who is like this. It just makes me what to cry how messed up I am.
I guess if I have a label to put on it, people will know that it 'comes' from somewhere and that it isn't just me being weird.
This is just what came to my head early in the morning as I am getting ready for my husband to leave to go out of town which I REALLY hate. I know that I will be freaking out all day and will not know what to do with myself which gets dangerous.
Are there any chats or anything today or this evening that anyone knows about. I get so scared being alone...
C. Oliver (my Service Dog)
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Originally Posted by ultramar
Hi C.Oliver,
In re-reading this thread it's really struck me how often you seem to describe your feelings and behaviors in terms of diagnoses or other mental health labels. Rather than describing how you feel in terms of your own unique self. 
but my OCD brings it up in my head again and again as if the conversations didn't even take place
I also have a 'delusion' that I MUST be on the real thing and not the generic or something bad will happen
Luckily I do have a 'hobbie' or an obsession and that is riding
PTSD talking here
Maybe this has come about because you've been diagnosed/labeled with so many things. But where's the just "you" in all of this, the C.Oliver who thinks and feels as she does because she is who she is, someone struggling with a lot of things, but is far more, and more valuable, than all these pathologies?
Just something to chew on and I hope you get onto a more even keel soon!
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