I think treatment can only help so much.. I had a really rough childhood, I started having depression in 1st or 2nd grade, I didn't really understand my feelings and couldn't comprehend depression or knew why I felt the way I did.. I just remember that I had absolutely no energy, I never brushed my teeth or hair and would wear sweats and these ugly pink boots because I didn't feel like tying my shoes. My mom caught onto it pretty quickly and got therapist and put on meds.. but the way I see it now she was putting all the responsibility onto someone else and not really doing much on her part as a parent. My mom was absent, she had left me to be raised by my grandparents while she went off and married an abusive alcoholic. I think THAT was one of the reasons why I was depressed, she abandoned me. She was around somewhat, but very distant and she never really talked to me or knew what was going on in my life. I experienced a lot of bullying and childhood traumas that I think I could've avoided if only she would've been there to offer more guidance. I was sent to shrinks/doctors, put into a special ed school, put into hospitals all throughout my childhood and adolescent years and I don't feel like it did any good, in fact I think might have even perpetuated my problems by making me feel "different" and like there was something wrong with me. I just feel like she could've handled the situation better.. I'm not saying I didn't need professional help but she could've did her part and prevented things from getting so out of control.
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