Hi there first of all I want to send you HUGGSSS! I am a person that has attempted suicide many times and the most important thing I can tell you is that my head was not on straight at the time. From the irrational behavior of your "friend" his is not on straight either. I agree with all the other folks up above and their suggestions but something may not have been touched upon and that is if you are trapped in this relationship. First of all he may be using these suicide attempts to get attention and therefore he should be getting therapy. If at all possible you should be looking for a way out of the situation and there may be some problems with that. Who does the apartment belong to and all that and the money to pay the rent, the important thing is that there are better ways to live. You do not deserve the negative treatment you are getting. There may be Women's resources around you maybe check with the phone book and see if there are any listed. The last thing is you may be a plus size girl but that does not mean you have to accept less than appropriate treatment. I'll bet you are harder on yourself too than you imagine. When you told your story of going for breakfast I think you are probably harder on yourself than you imagine. You might check in to see if you can get some counseling to help you through this hard time in your life.
Tattooman