I just sent you an email. Never done that before. Now I'm numb, but I think it's because of the alcohol. Later on I will be so anxious that I can't feel my fingers and toes. I told you not to read it (I just wanted to put something in your inbox for next week, so that I don't convince myself in the interim that it's not important blah blah blah), which means I will be checking my inbox compulsively for the next three days and will be extremely embarrassed when I see you.