Thank you for your response Yeah, that's how I feel too, like my mind is telling me you don't care or some other nonsense as I am trying to engage in conversation with someone. It's odd because I remember myself to be quite the opposite, although my OCD thoughts have gone out of control with this and keep trying to tell me I've always been this way I just never knew it. It gets so out of control sometimes that I literally feel like I am trapped in my own body and mind which is one of the most horrifying sensations. Do you ever get this? I just want my old self back but it seems absolutely impossible to regain it.