(((((hugs)))))

I see from your profile that you're only 22. Don't worry about it, man. I'm not trying to belittle your feelings, but sex really isn't that big of a deal I guess, at least to me. I lost my virginity at 18 to a guy I met online. I went on a date with him and after dinner, well, you can guess what happened. Maybe I should have saved it, but I don't really regret anything. But honestly, the sex itself didn't feel like that big of a deal. Certainly not what I'd led myself to believe it would feel like. Certainly not worth all the hype. Perhaps it's different with someone you've been in a serious relationship with. If that's the case, I can't offer you much advice as I'm in the same situation myself (Single, that is. Seemingly forever single.) Hang in there. I know this doesn't help much but at least know you're not alone.