Hi lightbulb.

I just wanted to say Ive read your post and in it I find a lot of disturbing things. Not meaning that you are disturbing in any way, but what you've experienced would certainly cause problems for any of us I think. Some of the thoughts you described are familiar to me. Before I reply too much, I want to see what you feel now that you've posted and gotten some things out in the open. Is it helping? Please add more as you feel is needed, we are listening.