(((((Canders7))))) I think it is wonderful that you have made it three months!!! I also feel your pain. I have not SI in two years but I still miss it badly somedays. Keep working at it because it does get easier the farther you get. I did not have the strength to stop for myself at first. I was stopping for my at the time husband to be. Eventually something clicked in my head and I did it for myself. I don't know what made it click though. It took at least a year! Good Luck