AP= anti-psychotic. My husband always goes with me to T at least for 15 min. especially the last 3 months.

Right now, I'm good. I'm in the calm before the crash or hypo-manic (depending on who you ask). It's lasted almost 2 wks. which is really long for me. I keep reminding myself to get my crap together because I'll eventually crash. I keep worrying that I'll let my guard down and be disappointed when I crash. I wouldn't even be able to come close to having a serious conversation about an AP if I was still all grrr.

It's hard to wrap my mind around him out right refusing to advocate for me. I understand I was very confrontational this last time but I just don't get it. He knows what it's like. He expects me to keep him and us safe when he can't. Why now does he feel my wrath would be far worse then our safety?