hope_alive1 i think i was bit rude in last post. after 4 weeks of mania now for 3 weeks i am in mixed state. it is annoying and i am seriously considering starting lithium. as soon as i could figure out how to minimize damage to my kidneys.

my daily regimen- i sleep for 9-10 hours- i am not yet completely out of my depression. i keep regular schedule for sleep. i do bit running just 1 km but i do it almost daily or whenever i am feeling down. i eat healthy- spend lot of money for that. and thats it. my depression lasts for 3 years and this is third year so i am just waiting for it to get over and next 5 years of hypomania.

i have to confess my bipolar is getting worse with age. these cycles are like 2 months of hypomania followed by 2 months depression. but 2 years ago it was all depression. i used meds for 6 months to get over that. i had lost lot of weight,afterwards due to meds i gained weight, again after i stopped meds i lost few kilos. but now i am in nice healthy condition.

you mentioned some genuine reasons for not taking meds. but i think you are not in good condition. if you are so afraid to take meds you can have yourself admitted. i know its not easy but even i have accepted i have bipolar and its getting worse with age and i am starting lithium just to make myself productive.