right there wif you.

it was mainly my mother that was highly dysfunctional.

besides being ignored as an infant by her. she routinely gave me beer as a child and sleeping pills to make me goto sleep. i had severe insomnia always have still do. i remember at nine she tested diff beers on me. yea i got the adopted thing too and im not even! she used to spray me with the water hose to "teach me a lesson" shed said.

i had severe mental health problems since 9 years old.
!!!and at around 9 as much as i regret it and always will (no matter how bad i felt at the time) things had just gotten so bad that i remember finding a...lets just say a loaded something in my parents closet and pointing it at both my mom and sis and then me and saying some things.

i dont wanna get graphic or scare anyone. i just want to share my story. and find some solace. im pretty desperate to find solace about my childhood.

lots of sh_t happened but i feel i need to stop here.