Everybody went to sleep and I'm sitting here on a Sunday morning 5:30 AM with nothing to do. I work nights and so I'm always awake at this time. I have no friends and it has been that way for a very long time, about 8 years or more. I've been depressed for a longer time than that. I am on meds and regularly see a counselor/therapist. I've been doing this for about 6 months now with no results. I don't feel better at all, I feel just the same as I did when I first walked into the door. I'm going insane I tell you, and my psychiatrist now suggests that I go to a mental health center for an IOP (intensive outpatient program). I don't want to go there though, it makes me feel like I'm in grade school. I just want to be able to do things with other people besides my family and maybe someday get a girlfriend... sigh. I'm so miserable...I fear that even if the right people come along I won't be able to interact with them properly since I've been depressed for so long. I don't know where to start changing things. This city is so boring, there isn't much to do at night/morning here. I get so lonely.