Darth,

No, you weren't rude. And i need all the honesty I can get. I'm very good at lying to myself and to others, so blunt talk is very refreshing and helpful.

Being admitted..scary thought, but if things don't get better, I just might have to. My main worry is, once you're hospitalised, it'll forever be on your record...following you everywhere. HIPPA privacy laws aren't that strong and you can be disqualified for many jobs if they find out you were admitted/committed for psychiatric reasons. Not fair, but it's the world we're living in. One of the last few remaining prejudices that are socially and publicly acceptable = prejudice against the mentally ill.