So I've come to the realization that I'm really good at faking happiness. I know how to fool people and hide my depression really well. So well that no one in my life knows except for one person who I knew it was safe enough to tell. I know that if I have a smile on my face, no one will ever think that I'm not happy. No one seems to even suspect that there's something wrong. If someone does comment that I look sad, I always deny it. I know it's wrong to lie and it's deceptive, but I've been hiding this for ten years and I can't stop lying about it. I wish I had enough courage to tell someone, but the thought of anyone finding out makes me extremely anxious.