You may not be admitted but you have to be honest with your T all the time. Are you against short term medication? Enough to pull you out and get things back on track. That way you can have the ability to learn the skills to be med free. If you want to stay in your home you have to get help cleaning it up. Maid services, can help and a lot of them can be short term. You said your landlord already came in and saw the state of your home , eviction is a real possibility.