yes you are right. discrimination still exist. even if there are laws against it. but you could always use private hospitals and cash for everything. they wont ask you any questions.

if you dont want hospitalization there is always lithium. and you can simply tell your pdoc which meds you want. i plan to do that. do it step by step. check on internet your nearest pdoc. next step take appointment. if possible on evening so you wont miss it because you were asleep. next step clean yourself and meet your pdoc and ask him for meds imediately. tell him how hard it is for you to make this trip again. I remember on friday i used to think i will go this monday. then on monday i would think think there is whole week remaining. on tuesday you really dont want to go. on wednesday you take bath but sadly it is 5 pm till you clean yourself. on thursday you are really tired of thinking about pdoc. again comes friday. again you promise yourself surely you will go next week. i have in reality spent few weeks like this until finally i succeeded in reaching hospital and meeting pdoc. even second appointment was difficult to keep. but you have no choice. time flies and we are not getting stronger just sitting in front of our lappy.

you can also use mirror to look at yourself. when we are depressed we really dont want to look at ourselves. you can get motivated if you just looked yourself in the mirror. and i think you still care what others think about you. thats stupid. dont care about others you have enough problems,worries as it is. dont care about what they will think when you get admitted in hospital. i know you should have many friends working in prestigious companies. but stop caring/thinking about them and think about only yourself. you need to do this. only job you will miss because of this will be of army officer. there are enough opportunities left if you think about it. it is like addict situation, we really cant help you until you help yourself. first step should come from you. just like those addict who cant help themselves get admitted into rehab like that we have hospitals. so decide !!!