Like you I have two faces in a way, my "happy face", and my "real face" that only my very immediate family know about. You know I think your family may know more than you think !. For example it was weighing heavy on my mind that I hadnt told my dad and that made me even more sad. So, I told him in round about way. I said that I was feeling low at times, and he replied I thought you were a bit "moody" over the last few months. My brother died last august and I thought that he would be more worried, because he has enough to deal with. Something to think about . Best Wishes to you.