I'm feeling this way right now. I have an older son who doesn't want anything to do with me much.I'm very bored. I do have a son with me but he's more interested in his own friends. I felt manic for the past month or so. I really find all kinds of music helps but can't be focused on the tv for almost anything.I don't like chaos though. I had chaos for all my life and finally found out the only one who can help me is myself. Of course talking here and finding good friends has gotten me through a really hard few months. What's your fav genre of music? Hope things get better