Hi texascoco, I read your reply and immediately remembered something I read not too long ago. Here's my two cents on your matter: I think you may be neurotic. I am no expert, so don't take my words too seriously, but somehow your story made me think of this.
" ...the general picture is one of a vague anxiety, a need for affection or, more accurately, a need for some human contact. These persons have the feeling of drifting forlornly in the universe, and any human contact is a relief to them.” (The Neurotic Personality of Our Time, 1937, P. 117)"
"A neurotic’s needs a lot more intense than those of “normal” people, in reference to the first neurotic need, a neurotic expects both affection and approval to be constantly given to them by every individual they meet in their daily lives. They find it impossible to be self-sufficient unlike “normal” citizens. When a neurotic does not consistently experience both affection and approval they tend to feel rather anxious and uncertain of themselves".

Again, it doesn't suit your case 100%, but it seems accurate enough to me.
Hope it helps

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