Nothing is "undoable" You just need small attainable goals. Life can suck and it is going to continue to suck at times ... but that is how life is regardless of being Bipolar. There is always hope . you may not see it right now .. but reach out and I bet you can find some... Not a single person takes photographs like you , no one .. just you. That right there is proof you have something one can take away from you.