Lonliness is knowing that other people can handle the stressors that I can't, so I can't talk to people around me about my frustrations. It makes me feel like I am worthless and less valuable than others because they can do things that I can't. If I wasn't crippled by my own stressors at work and home, I could be as good as they are and possibly have hobbies that allow me to talk to them. For now my interests and hobbies are coping skills to allow me to function as a manager, employee, husband and father (none of which I do very well).

In fact others around me act like the stressors I face are trivial to them. It's cruel to be put in situations like this, but no one will pay for me to live without being subjected to this torture at work. I'll do my best to keep living and not show my weakness (I will continue to be very lonely).