I'm finding myself doing a search on here before I post anything. My (former) therapist did say I had "paranoid features"

I am not sure how paranoid I am now. I find myself constantly monitoring and checking my thoughts, feelings, actions, and what I post.

I didn't sleep much last night. I was too tense and thinking too much.

Some of the thoughts I was having were about happy times in my life, including holidays with Mr Bear.

I know I have the capacity for joy and happiness, even when things feel or seem at the worst, I am not giving up hope. To give up hope is to give up everything. I do not intend to ever do that.

In one of Mr Bear and my (grammer) favourite holiday destinations, my favvourite waiter used to say these same words to everyone in the vast and enticing breakfast room....There was a view out onto a lake. I have always loved water. And trees....

The waiter used to say "You may either be served or serve yourself".

Maybe there is a truth in life contained in those words too......

PS Nina I saw your post re. The Golden Rule. We don't talk much (yet?) but maybe we have been thinking along similar lines recently. I send you my best thoughts.

It's quiet here. Mr Bear and I are in our cave. We are safe......(breathe bear, you are safe)