Oh wow DH she is beautiful thank you so much for that. Tears of gratitude.

Yea bf is kinda a jerk. Easter morning started so nice, he brought me red roses and bacon and potatoes and did yardwork while I cooked. But something really set me off yesterday... I'd confided in a realtor "friend" a couple weeks ago about my troubles and that I may need to sell moms house for her. I confided that bf and I were broke up but that I agreed to go to dinner with him and hoping for reconciliation and perhaps he would fix up house and wait to get paid until sale. I was very clear with her that this tlk was confidential. So anyway she saw my bf in town and told him things I'd said. I feel so betrayed and tried to explain to bf but he's clueless about women and friendships and didn't want to hear it be thought I was overreacting . She told him, "if C has to sell her house, I want the chicken coop and will pay you to move it." It's a big breach of trust and I feel she's an opportunistic bish, and flippantly shooting her mouth around town about my life falling apart. And she must be an idiot to lose a listing on a million dollar house. Yea I gotta do something with this anger :/ she's one of those always flirty with my boyfriend. He has zero interest in her. I wonder why people like her seem obviously insane and get away without having to have some dx...

I totally forget my point sorry. Maybe point is that yes totally stressed out feel on the verge of losing house car career worldly possessions and I'm scared for my life and my kids. I do wish I had a good husband for that support and companionship. I wish my kids had a good dad. And I've expressed this to bf, he never wants to marry again. I would love to have a partner to share my life and secrets with and especially through dark times like this.