Maybe you need a change but not a medicine change but a change in something. Like.... I don't know... a trip into the mountains or to the ocean or the forest. Maybe you need to stand on a mountain and scream as loud as you can into the wind.

I don't know.

I try to think when I'm depressed really bad what I do.... I just go along. I don't tell anyone usually. I just go until it stops, because it does eventually stop. I pray. I think about my kids being alone, sitting like I sit when I think about how my mom left me here without her, even if it wasn't her choice. I play a game or watch something funny.

I don't know. I've never had any help so I just keep going and not stop. I don't know why.