I fake being normal every day I am able to go outside. But i consider that some substance maybe be suppressing an emotion you are meant to feel. You are meant to cry. You are meant to have sexual feelings. But there are many substances we put in us keeping us from feeling natural things. Could be coffee, sugar, prescribed medications etc, alcohol cigarettes. These things are keeping us from experiencing true emotion. They are altering our behaviour in very suttle ways. When you have no feelings. Substances masking who we are. Such that we do not even know who we are. We do not know ourselves. We might not even be aware we have no feelings. And we are not regulating them because there is nothing to regulate. To me this is a type of atrophy where we need to learn to grow again and find who we are.