Nature is a healer... and a warm comfy bed can be too... yea def talk to t and pdoc if you can go to them. talk to us, anyone... talk until it's all talked out and the next wave comes. I think that's good for processing the **** and finding a way to wrap your head around it and eventually find some kind of relief or solution or mood energy level... something different has to come soon for you, you've been down a long time.