Hi Centsless: Well, I can't relate directly to your situation. I've never been on anti-depressants for very long. Currently I'm on Cymbalta. I've been on that for a bit over a year now & that's the longest I've been on any one SSRI. But I've been a several individually & in combination with other psych meds. I'd be on them for a few months. They wouldn't do any good, so I'd wean myself off of them.

But one thing I do know is that it takes time for meds to work & it takes time to come off of them & readjust. One thing that occurs to me is the possibility that, after 20 years, you came off of them too quickly. Is that a possibility? I would think that, after 20 years, one would need a fairly long gradual process. Otherwise, it may be that you're just expecting too much too soon in terms of emotional stability. Here again, after 20 years I would guess it's going to take some time to adjust to your "new" brain.

If possible I would suggest contacting your doctor & having a chat regarding how you're adjusting to the new you. My best wishes to you!